Our lives are so painfully hard as men of God. If you don’t believe the struggle, it’s shown here. I don’t know for sure what the issue is but it hurts me so much to see this. I am a supporter of this man and his ministry. Are they a perfect church? No. Is he a perfect man? No. But who is, but Christ and his Father. As followers, we are attacked from all sides. I use to think that if you were a pastor or elder you were beyond the typical sin failure. I use to think if I stayed in the church or studying the Bible that this would result in me not falling towards sins or not having problems resisting it. This is so far from the truth. In my life, as well as others I have seen, there are great powers that reside against us. Great powers and principalities stand at odds against us. Things fall in line to present almost impossible probabilities that prove the attack is super natural. Yes, we have a greater source that is for us. But the problem is the temptation of used is God’s will according to scripture. He is not tempting you “himself” but it is still within his will that younare tested and tempted. So our lives aren’t some easy road traveled when we seek him or walk with him. It’s at time unfair to me and my mind. But if God can lead Christ into temptation who are we to complain about going through the same thing? Most people don’t like accepting that scripture says this but it’s the truth. In fact I believe the lives we live today in many ways( not all) is harder to refrain from sin because of the accessibility of it. It’s everywhere and in everything. It’s a miricle that we still have his grace with as much as we could fall to and have fallen to in our lives. We fight every day of lives to do the right thing. Things that happen to us sometimes defy logic. Yes, we can put ourselves in certain circumstances but those aren’t the ones I’m referring to. I’m talking about the weird situations when you pick up an old Bible to study and the old picture of you X falls out of it, and after putting away, memories hit and that very person calls you or text you out the blue after 10-15 years of silence. Or that night that your husband or wife has done that one thing for the last time and you leave the house to cool off and you run right into your co-worker that has been in view for years and you are finally around each other for the first time outside of the job and all they want to do is just go somewhere and “talk”. I get” the testing of our faith” and what it produces. I also understand God’s sovereignty. So unlike most, I don’t make excuses for it when it come across the scriptures. That being said, I still don’t understand it. I, being human, don’t get the cooperation God gives Satan’s kingdom during that temptation. I personally would rather have his protection against temptation not his approval to place me into it. People misquote scripture all the time believing that God doesn’t do this because God doesn’t tempt us. That’s right, he doesn’t “himself”. That’s what the scripture says. ” He “Himself” doesn’t do it but he will allow Satan and his kindgdom to do so. Then people that need to debate this try and rely on the word “allow”. The word “Allow” to a complete sovereign God weighs much heavier than the word “Allow” when applied to Humans. For God to allow something to happen when he is conplete control requires his involvement to do so. Just like Job, Satan had to address God in every facet of the temptation and how strong or how far it would be allowed to go. So, it’s not something that happened that he wasn’t fully aware of in every point of the temptation. The biggest difference is that as a sovereign God he already knows if we will fail the temptation. And if he knows rather or not we will fail and still cooperates with allowing us to be tempted then what does that say? For me, as a human, I used to believed that if I am following him and putting myself in his word, that he would protect me from the temptation that I would fail in. This is wrong, case in point above. This is where it stings, this is where I hurt. To see this man that I know and have spoken to personally, fall to the point that he felt the need to step down is something that is more painful than anything I have felt in the last year or more. And to top it off, I honestly don’t have a answer to this or advice for others. I have yet to meet one man that is in any denomination that is exempt from failure in sin. I use to think that there was a way for me to grow and gain enough knowledge that I would be able to bypass failure in sinning. Its what I always thrived for and over the years I had to deal with the reality that I would never reach this nor has any other man no matter what they claim. Grace is all I can depend on it seems. “His grace is sufficient”.